Being home sick is the weirdest thing I have ever experienced, its hard to explain and to exactly pin point what it is like as everyone feels it in different ways. For me personally I kind of feel a bit stupid for missing home whilst at university as I know that everyone at home is just going about their normal routine and they are all just a phone call or a FaceTime away. Both my Mum, Dad and older Sister are all working all day long and my younger brothers still in school, so I’m not missing anything… but it still feels like I am that longing to be surrounded in all things warm, familiar and cosy is still there!
It may sound bad but I can now tell when my home sickness is beginning to set in now, its sadly kind of become a familiar feeling over the past 3 years! Normally it happens when I have been sat in my room alone for a while, or when I’m walking back from uni alone. You get the start of this kind of sinking feeling that’s pulling you down and all you want is to be surrounded by your family in familiar settings such as your front room or kitchen, laughing and joking with each other. I think my brother and sister kind of take for granted the fact they are still living at home with warm meals on the table every night because that’s all I crave when I get like that.
I make sure that I go home often enough during term time so that the home sickness doesn’t set in as much. Going home does ease the sickness a hell of a lot as when back home in the Shire I realise I haven’t missed anything at all apart from the usual town gossip. But if you go home you sadly have to come back! And I can say with out a doubt one of the worst thing is getting on that bus back to London. It sounds so stupid but it feels like I have been abandoned or just left at the station but it makes it worse if the family come and wave me goodbye. It really is the worst thing seeing all things familiar disappear!!
But luckily I don’t get as home sick as I did so I can enjoy my weekends at home and not dread coming back to London as much as I did. But I’m not saying I don’t get home sick anymore because I do and whilst I’m writing this all I want is to be snuggled on the sofa with the dogs. But keeping myself busy keeps this at bay most days.
Being homesick is so strange I’ve experienced it for 3 years now and I still can’t put my finger on what exactly it is or how it feels. But there you go these a few of my opinions on the matter.
Thanks for reading.
Little Mayfly x