I love having this blog as somewhere I can just spit out all of the mad and crazy thoughts that wiz around my noggin on a daily basis. So I don’t blame you if you find this next blog of brain mush uninteresting or boring I just feel like I need to project somewhere.
Now that I’m in my third and final year of university everyone I meet asks the same dreaded question of… ‘What are you going to do when you finish?’ And the honest answer to that question is I don’t know!! Not a clue!! And yes that does really scare me. What am I going to do? Where will I be? The future holds way to many questions for me to handle!!! I think the reason why it scares me so much is because I’ve always known what I wanted to do. From the age of 12 I knew exactly what GCSE and A Level exams I wanted to take, so the next step was obviously to apply for university. And now I’ve come to the end of the education system I don’t know where to go next. Yes I could carry on at Uni and do a masters or teaching degree but I’m in no way ready for that.
I think it’s also difficult because of the type of degree course I’m taking, for example if you do a degree in law you become a lawyer at the end and can go straight into it. Or you study a degree to be a dentist and as soon as you finish you can get a job as a dentist. But studying for a degree in Dance Performance you have no job security at the end of it. I could be auditioning for jobs and companies for months before I get my first professional job that pays or has good enough funding. But then again I guess on the other hand I love to dance and create things, it sound kind of stupid but I feel so free when I dance I can put so much emotion into it I just love it! So I guess as long as I find something to satisfy that need I will be fine, even if I had to do some bar work on the side. I think it’s the thing of getting the right balance between work to live or live to work (if you get what I mean). Or maybe I’m just scared of being faced with this big wide world of opportunities and I have no clue which way to turn. I would like to maybe travel and see this mad world while I can. There are opportunities out there maybe I’m scared of trying to find them.
In a weird conclusion I think I’m actually a massive worry butt who needs to stop panicking and being scared of opportunities that are out there. There is going to come a time in the next few final months of uni when I will just have to pull up my big girl panties and just get on with it. I guess the future will just have to happen.
Thanks for reading.
Little Mayfly x